hive mind

Why is it, the best sleep I get all night is from 10am to 11:30? This is ridiculous. I have many things to do, but am too lazy to do them. Its time fo skewl.

What a great day!

I woke up when my alarm went off, Got new shoes, made a really good friend really happy, and kicked ass at school!

I finally got some sw33t shoes dis morning and they fit GR8. And what a deal at $59! School flew by today. We started welding T-Joints today, and they are way fun. In case you were wondering, they look like THIS: +. I also got a gigantic fucking burger for lunch, and it vas delicious. Then after school, we went to Taco Bell. I only got a freeze thing since I wasn’t hungry, but it was good.

Now I’m off to take a shower, since I haven’t for 4 days XP

Hopefully the last half of the day goes as good as the first half!

Just got into the single digits!

I guess thinks are never as bad as they seem. You think I would learn this after it’s happened THIS MANY TIMES. Oh well things should be fine now.

OH SHIT!

I’m getting new shoes tomorrow! The pair I have right now I have had since January 2007! I’m gonna go to the skate shop down by the beach and look for some sweet Vans. My roommate is gonna try and get me a discount, since his uncle owns the store xD So hopefully tomorrow is a good day! School shouldn’t be too bad since we are welding different shit, instead of just running beads all day. This week needs to go swiftly!

HOW DARE YOU LOWER MY TUMBLARITY! YOU BASTARD!

I don’t know what it is about me. Maybe I’m sleep deprived. Maybe I’m just a desperate loser looking for a little bit of attention. Maybe I should stop putting every fiber of my being into things that aren’t guaranteed to last. Maybe there is nothing wrong at all, and its just in my head. Maybe I think too much. <— That one is definitely true. These blogs sure tell me a lot about myself. Like how much I seem like a fucking psycho, riding an emotional roller coaster all in my own mind. I’m tired of this shit. I wish I could stop myself, but I can’t. I’m fighting a war against my own mind, and it’s winning. Sometimes i just need a little extra support and I really only want that from one person. I just want to get things worked out so I can be happy again. This problem can still be fixed. I just need a little help. I just need to get these issues resolved, before I blow them way out of proportion, which I think I already have.

I really need to stop fucking up my life. I hope I’m not ruining something great.

Yeah. How hard is it? To take 5 maybe 10 minutes out of your day to talk to me? There is no way you can be THAT busy. I want to know whats up? What is the deal? Something is different and I want to know what happened. Anyways, sorry for tonight, but you dodging me all the time really got on my nerves and for some reason I got angry and I was just taking it out on you.

I’m going to try and probably fail to blog more often.

So we had a little party here last night, we played Beer Pong and I got drunk again. Several people came and went. The cheap table broke 3/4 of the way through the night. I can’t decide if I should drink more, or less. On one hand, if I drink more, I’ll raise my tolerance, and not be so crazy. On the other hand, if I drink less, well, I can’t think of any reason not too. Whatever, I’ll get used to it. Hopefully.

pursuitofkyle:

Whats up?

I’m probably gonna go see those guys, along with Casey Jones, on October 3rd.

Boy, I sure live an exciting life! here is my day, Monday through Friday, EVERYDAY:

10:00am-alarm goes off, i hit snooze 5 or 6 times.

11:30am-i finally wake up

11:31-12:30pm-I harvest green tea, plant Aloe Vera in Farmville, get dressed, and, rarely, eat something.

12:30-We leave for school

12:45-We arrive at school, we sit around with a few other friends from class, in the parking lot.

1:00-Buzzer rings, we enter the building. On classroom days, we sit in the class and watch videos and take tests until 6:00, with about six 10 minute breaks dispersed throughout.

1:05-3:10-I weld, grind, and waste a lot of time.

3:10-i start cleaning up for lunch, 20 minutes early.

3:15-3:25-I usually leave for lunch in this range.

3:30-3:45-All we get for a break the whole 6 hours. 2 Uncrustables everyday, usually with nothing to drink.

3:50-when I actually leave lunch.

3:55-5:30-I weld, grind, and waste a lot of time.

5:30-When i start cleaning up to leave.

5:45-The cleanup bell rings, most of the class is already cleaned up by now.

5:50-Terry talks for a minute, and dismisses us.

6:05-Average time of arriving back at the apartment.

6:06-7:00-I Harvest the Aloe Vera, and plant blackberries in Farmville. I sometimes shower, but i have been very lax on this lately. Waste time on the computer.

7:01-8:00-I usually eat something in this time period. Waste time on the computer.

8:01-10:00-Sometimes I play darts or card games with my roommates in this time period. Otherwise, I waste more time on the computer.

10:01-11:00-I usually harvest the blackberries in this time period. Haley often makes an appearance late in this period.

11:01-12:00am-I plant the green tea here. I also spend most of this time bothering Haley when she is trying to do something.

12:01-1:00-I waste more time on the computer here. Every so often, I’ll go to bed in this period. Fran likes to drunk text me during this period.

1:01-2:00-Still on the computer. Haley often runs off to bed in this period. If she does, then I do too.

2:01-3:00-I don’t often stay up this late anymore, due to the fact that there is no one to talk to at this time.

3:01-9:59am-I am usually sleeping during this time. Sometimes earlier, sometimes later, depending on who is awake.

So that’s my day, not really in a nutshell. What an adventurous life.

im still not a member of beardface! MAKE ME ONE

tucker6891@yahoo.com

Of course. Things cant be solved that easily. I try to be happy, but something always holds me back. It could be so simple, but its not. Everything could be solved in 5 minutes, but you don’t have the time.You used to stay up till 3am just to talk to me, now you are even too busy to text me back, even if its just to let me know that you are busy. I just want to know, what changed? What happened that made you just casually stroll by and say “hey”, instead of proclaiming how you missed me, and how you couldn’t wait for me to come back? One week you tell me how you love me, and how you have only REALLY said that to 2 other people, and the next week you say you were never attached to me? I want to know how you really feel. And if you are just truly busy, then that’s fine. I’ll be waiting for you to be free, and my feelings won’t change.

I know I’m probably making something out of nothing. If this is true, prove I’m right.

so. I’m still extremely confused. Maybe this will help me feel better.

(whatever was supposed to be here, I deleted and re wrote over 10 times and I’m still not happy with it.)

I just really hope it’s not too late. I think I’m just having a man period. No other reason to explain these shitty emotions. October needs to be here NOW. I need to do what I’m meant to do. Only thing stopping me is 1300 miles. That shouldn’t make a difference.

mattpulpfree:

pursuitofkyle:

During the 16th century, it was believed that each demon had more strength to accomplish his mission during a special month of the year. In this way, he and his assistants’ powers would work better during that month.

• Belial in January
• Leviathan in February
• Satan in March
• Belphegor in April
• Lucifer in May
• Berith in June
• Beelzebub in July
• Astaroth in August
• Thammuz in September
• Baal in October
• Asmodai in November
• Moloch in December

The classification of demons by month seems to have astrological implications more than religious ones.

amazing

those are such bad-ass names! i need to have 12 kids so i can name one of each of these!

stephbales:

go steph bales.

you da man!

mattpulpfree:

For the laughs and we all bought into you being a little tipsy, but lets be honest…it was nothing more than another publicity stunt by you.

You are a little kid and love attention, it’s been what 4 years since you said bush hates black people?

I’ve got to hand it to you, you keep making outrageous moves and insane comments but we still buy into your “re-sampled twenty times over with a synthesize over your voice” record every time.

he needs to do this shit more often!